I wonder....

Tonight as I laid my baby boy down to sleep I wondered...

Is this the last night he'll be my baby boy?

still waiting

Sorry, I don't have any cute pictures to share with this posting.  The camera is packed away ready to snap pictures of this little one's birth should he EVER decide to come out!

Here's a little update...

My due date with this past Friday the 25th.  I had an appointment with the midwives that afternoon and I was told I was 4cm dilated, 60% effaced and with a contraction the mid-wife was able to feel the baby's head and my membrane sack "bulge down".  Sorry if that was a little T.M.I.  I was also informed that despite my great efforts all week this little man was still in a posterior position. 

Following that appointment I had some great contractions but as it seems with every night for the past two weeks the contractions will fade out by time I go to bed. 

Last night, the 26th, as I crawled into bed around 11:30ish the contractions didn't go away and in fact I was having them every 6-7 minutes for a good 30 minutes however they must have stopped because I woke up at 12:30 to my son yelling out for his blankie because he lost it in his bed. 

By 5:30 this morning I just felt as if something wasn't right.  Both of my hips started to hurt and I could no longer get comfortable in bed.  I decided a good hot bath should help and it did--for as long as I stayed in there. 

Long story short--after a much needed melt down (or two, or three) I decided all the discomforts I was having was my form of active labor.  You see when I was pregnant with LB (also a posterior baby) my contractions started at midnight on his due date and by 1:30am my water had broke so I knew when I was in active labor.  During my 20 hour labor at the birthing center my contractions never became close enough to allow me to dilate to the final 10th cm and by time I made the call to go to TMC for the epidural my back labor was so great I couldn't take it anymore.  It would still take 4 fours of pitocin and 2 hours of pushing before I finally gave birth to LB. 

So now maybe you can see why I feel needing my contractions to be somewhere around 5 minutes apart for an hour for me to be considered "active" in labor with my membranes intact may not apply to me.  I had considered that if we waited for my membranes to rupture for me to become "active" in my labor while I was having all this discomfort then poor daddy might be delivering this little bundle on the side of the road. 

After a little going back and forth with the birthing center they decided to have me come in just to check things out.  Much to my disappointment I hadn't made any progress since I was checked on Friday.  Good thing I already had all my melt downs that morning!  Now I just wanted a brick wall to smack my head against.

So this afternoon we headed home and I started taking Evening Primrose capsules and drinking chamomile tea to help soften the rest of my cervix and perhaps make my contractions more consistent. 

I must admit that all this going back and forth with what is considered to "false labor" has really taken its toll on me and now with the constant pain in my both of my hips I do feel like I have reached my breaking point. 

I knew to expect that a posterior baby brings a longer labor however it's just extremely frustrating to feel you've made a lot of great head way when you haven't. 

Tomorrow, Monday, we are hoping to see an acupuncturist to see if she can help flip this little boy and ease by back & hip pain and once and for all throw me into active labor. 

Keep your fingers crossed that the next time you hear from me I'll the exciting news to share that we have all been waiting for!

And then he was TWO!

Wow...I can't believe my little boy has turned two!  Where did the wee hours of the morning on Friday, February 6, 2009 go?  As I looked into my newborn son's eyes all I could see was the now.

 

Now I was finally a mother. 

Now I had the most beautiful loving baby boy to care for. 

Two years later I now wonder where the time has gone!

This past weekend we celebrated the blessing of the past two years of our lives.  The blessing of our boy....

Love Bug 

Here's the invitation I sent out.  The theme was "construction."

The Cake as designed and built by daddy.

Some of the guests....

The chef's hard at work....

(do you notice my flags hanging in the background?)

The food table.

The Tonka truck is filled with chocolate cake balls to simulate rocks.  I purchased tool cookie cutters and made a whole bunch of sugar cookies frosted with royal icing.  I tried to cut down on all of the typical party waste by using as many real plates and silverware as I could.  We also saved money by using many real life construction themed items as decorations.

Singing to the birthday boy.

Of course he was totally confused as to why we were all singing to him AND not dancing at the same time.

Aunt Kissy and Bug

This turned out to be the best picture I took of him.

We had asked guests not to bring any gifts for Bug this year.  We were still feeling the toy gluttony from Christmas.  Mommy and Daddy of course still purchased something for him...

We managed to buy this kitchen off of craigslist before Christmas.  It didn't come with any of the accessories, which was fine, because I was able to pick and choose what I wanted for him to play with and along with some help from Aunt Kissy we were able to properly stock the kitchen ourselves.  I sure hope I get my own pastry chef out of this some day.

Here are the pooped hostesses after the party. 

Like my flags?

Once everyone had left and the messes cleaned up Daddy and Bug were able to enjoy some good one on one tool bonding time.  Daddy had purchased several toy tools for Bug for his birthday. 

A man and his boy can never have too many toys tools.

And what did mommy do?

I put my feet up and relaxed. 

To conclude....

When we asked guests not to bring any gifts for Bug we asked them to instead bring an unwrapped toy we could donate to a charity in Bug's name and that is what we did today.  Bug, Grammy and I loaded up the toys (disguised of course to prevent any meltdowns) and headed to Casas De Los Ninos.

Grammy was pretty sly and handed over the toys before Bug even had a chance to notice.  What we didn't see coming was the meltdown Bug would have over leaving the stuffed purple unicorn he found in the lobby. 

Oh well, I guess no matter how hard we try we can't prevent all meltdowns.

Thank you to everyone who came and celebrated this wonderful day with us!

Lots of love~SL